Sabi ko, I'll limit myself on posting on this blog of mine kasi I promised not to overshare anymore. But today is a very difficult day for me since there is something that keeps on triggering me. I want to free my mind from these thoughts.
I have this specific story na isang tao lang yung totoong nakakaalam ng buong detalye, and he is a very kind guy friend of mine. Long story short, my vulnerability was being taken advantage of, physically harassed to be exact. I thought it was okay, but now that I keep on remembering those memory, sobrang mali, at hindi ko alam kung bakit wala akong ginawa nung mga oras 'yun. Everytime I see this person, I feel so uneasy and uncomfortable. But I don't want to make it a big deal, I don't want to make it complicated.
Now that I think of it from time to time, paano kaya kapag dumating yung time na mangyari ulit 'yon, at sa ibang tao pa? I don't want to be weak, gusto kong maipaglaban yung sarili ko. Sana dumating yung time na mapatawad ko na yung sarili ko kasi hindi ko nagawang ipaglaban. Ayaw ko nang maging mahina, hindi ko na ulit hahayaan yung sarili ko na maging mahina.
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