Trust In His Perfect Timing

I stumbled upon this Medium post. Ever since I was young, I am always fond of disney princesses, hoping that this young little girl nissy will find her own prince charming once she grows up. Lagi niyang ini-imagine na someday, magkakaroon din siya ng happily ever after. I remember, I had this memory, I think eto yung pinakauna kong memory nung bata ako. Nasa isang simbahan ako tapos nagsasabihan ng vow yung dalawang kinakasal sa harap ng altar, tapos nasa isip ko nun nung bata ako, paano nila nakakayanan magsalita ng ganon sa harapan ng maraming tao? 'Pag ako tumanda, sabi ko sa sarili ko di ko ito gagawin kapag kinasal ako.

oh diba ang bata bata pa, kasal na agad?!

Pero ngayong I'm currently 19 years old, all I just want to happen in my life ay magkaroon ako ng successful career at payapang pamumuhay. Sana yung mga mangyari sa future nissy, ma-achieve yung mga goal sa life. I always see myself as afraid girlie na hindi risk taker. I am not comfortable in terms of getting out of my comfort zone because I just can't get away of the fact the I am not that kind of person na may bilib sa sarili. Lagi kong binababa yung sarili ko, and lagi kong nakikita yung mga pagkukulang ko which shows na wala akong tiwala on my own capabilities.

Medyo napapalayo na ako sa topic ko ah, when will I find my prince charming? or why not girl, we never know :P 

Anyway, as a hopeless romantic girlie na lately nalaman na hindi ako straight, I won't rush myself into finding my lover because nakikita ko sa nangyayari ngayon sa life ko na I should really have to make myself feel na I am already enough and I don't need someone to show how worthy and valuable I am. To my past relationship (with no label at all), I think that made me learn na there will come to a point na akala ko sila na ang aking happily ever after, but in the end, they just turned to be a chapter of this book of my life. I have found my first/puppy and my second/greatest love, sooo... when the right time comes, I hope God will lead me to that right person who will eventually become my one true love.

Pero Lord, I am not rushing ha? :) Just know that I am always trusting your will for me, even if I don't understand what's your plan for me at the moment, alam kong in the future, masasabi ko na "Haaay Lord, I knew it was you and your plan all along"

Anyway, bilang pagtatapos, I would like to put here this simple message my 14 years old sent me in the past. Don't worry old self, hindi kita bibiguin! :)