My Teen Life Is Coming To An End

Ang bilis talaga ng takbo ng panahon. I'm currently a 19 years old girlie during the time I am writing this entry. 4 months away nalang, birthday ko na ulit. And I'm officially not a teenager anymore once that day comes. 

Naging significant ba yung teen life ko? Oo, siguro. Gusto ko na rin talagang umusad, pero at the same time, natatakot sa magiging experience ko as a young adult. 20 years old, I don't feel like malapit na ako sa ganong edad, parang nag-stuck yung pag-usad ko nung pandemic wherein 15 years old palang ako non. But pandemic was 4 years ago, kaya kailangan ko na rin talagang isipin na hindi na ako bata. I'm technically not a minor anymore, nasa legal age na ako.

Pero kahit na ganoon, I don't see myself yet na kayang tumayo sa sarili kong mga paa, and that's the thing that I should work on myself, I should improve- No, I must. But just like what I am always saying, small steps at a time. 

I had met a lot of people who turned out to be my friends. Even though some of us may have grow apart, naging part naman sila ng buhay ko. Especially to my wonders, wala na akong masyadong balita sa kanila. Sometimes, I do think about them, I miss their kuwentos, I miss spending time with them. Pero masaya ako sa takbo ng buhay nila, they have found their partners, and I am genuinely always wishing them the best.

Para naman sa college peeps, to my encangpasko and special mention to the 2 hatdogs, and those 3 bois, honestly, they are making my college life bearable. Sobrang mahalaga yung environment when it comes to studying, at masaya ako na nakilala ko sila.

Ofcourse I always do wonder, what if pinaglaban ko yung gusto kong course, what if I tried harder, what if I didn't gave up my dreams? Yun yung pangarap sa'kin ni younger nissy even before highschool days, to pursue dentistry. But if I chose to be in this situation na pag-i-it, then I have nothing to worry. Kasi bakit ko ba pipiliin yung isang bagay na alam kong hindi ko kakayanin? 'Di ba nissy? Kaya 'wag na 'wag mong laging pagdudahan yung sarili mo, nissy. Because at the end of the day, magkakampi kayo.

Sa totoo lang, ang tanging core memory lang sa buhay teenager ko ay ang makaranas ng typical highschool at college crush na sobra kong iniyakan. Iniisip ko nalang talaga na ito ay isang canon event, and experience will always be my best teacher. But I am proud to say na I never had a significant one! And I feel like hindi ako para doon. I don't know, we'll definitely get there nissy, but not too soon. Maybe 15 years from now? Too exaggerated? Nah, I don't think so. 

Hmmm, ano pa ba? Ang buhay teenager ni nissy ay life changing, though she was hurt a lot by many people, but she definitely learned from them, and I think that's the most important part.

Now I do believe na lahat ng mga taong nakilala ko, they all had a purpose in my life, at sa lahat ng mga ginawa ko in the past, even if some of it ay nagkamali ako, kahit na ibalik ang mga oras at panahon, wala akong babaguhin na kahit ano. Basta ang mahalaga ngayon, alam ko na yung mga dapat baguhin sa sarili ko.

Now that my teen life is coming to an end, I'll be making the most out of it! ^_^