It was August 05, 2021, when all of these started. My first blogpost was entitled "Time Machine". If I could ask myself, why did I start blogging in the first place, I don't know why. I don't honestly remember. So, I'll take a moment of reflection at iisipin ko kung bakit nga ba?
During August 2021, it was our vacation. Kakatapos lang ng Junior High School ko, I was an incoming Grade 11 student the time I started this. My mind was full of overthinking thoughts, sobrang flooded na so what I remember was I was looking upon the internet about blogging stuffs, and then that's when I decided na what if I should write on my own? Oh... I'm slowly remembering all those things.
Time Machine was all about my past mistakes, kasi during that time, I think it's afternoon, sobrang random ng isip ko para i-recall lahat ng mgapagkakamaling ginawa ko. Isa na roon ay ang pagiging isang hindi mabuting kaibigan. Maintaining friendships for me during that time, ay talagang hindi ko magawa-gawa kasi the peak of the pandemic era was 2020-2021 and all I did was to isolate myself.
Sa mga panahong ding iyon ay ang aking dieting era, I remember I had a blog, and its content is all about my insecurities. Top 1 insecurity ko talaga ay ang pagiging chubby ko dati. Siguro isang reason sa kung bakit ko sobrang hine-hate yung body ko dati kasi yun yung nakita kong dahilan kung bakit nag-cheat sa'kin yung first love ko. Haaay, ilang taon ba akong nagmove-on don? 2020-2022, 2 years...
Ngayong binabalikan ko yung mga past blogs ko dati, most of it was all about my love life. Umikot lang sa first love at sa latest yung mga sinulat ko dito -- which is in-unpublish ko na. Yung mga tinira ko ay tungkol sa sarili, kaibigan, college, and many other things. Yung related sa usapang puso ay medyo slight nalang.
So... to conclude, I started creating and writing on this blog just to release my emotions, and my unsaid thoughts. Those overflowing thoughts that are circulating inside my mind during a random day. To my past nissy 2021, ang dami nang nagbago sa buhay mo, sa buhay natin. Hindi ko man maisa-isa kasi most of it, hindi ko na rin matandaan, pero this present nissy is not the same as you were during that time, during 2021. If only I could talk to you right now my dear past self, sobrang laki ng itinulong nitong blog, biruin mo, 3 years and counting na itong blog na ito! Ang ating anniversary ay sa August 05! Malapit na, two days nalang. Actually, ngayon ko lang nalaman na August 05 ko ito sinimulan.
Isa rin sa dahilan kung bakit ko ito sinimulan ay siguro dahil, hindi talaga mawawala sakin yung pagiging sentimental. I am fond of creating wonderful memories, and cherishing it is something that I always loved doing. <3
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