Love Is...

 Hello, my beloved Nissy, today is August 1st!

    Here I am, currently listening Love is by The Ridleys. Alam mo my future self, dati I always listen to Cup of Joe kasi their music excites me, and the way they define love is something that is exciting and thrilling. Just like how they described it on their song estranghero...

"Ako ay litong-lito, saan ba ito patungo?
'Di ko na alam kung dapat bang ihinto
'Di alam ang sasabihin, 'di alam ang aking gagawin
Kung mananatili sa 'yo, minamahal kong estranghero"

But as time goes by, naiiba na yung pananaw ko when defining loving someone. I admit that I once loved somoeone, but the love turned into obsession, which destroyed me. Despite all that, iba yung definition ng love sa mga kanta ng the ridleys, especially their latest single, Love is...

"So, if you ask me what love is and what it's about
To be honest, I'm still figuring it out
If I could be candid and tell you the truth
I just wanna figure love out with you"

When loving someone, we should be at peace. No butterfly in my stomach feeling. Sa buong buhay ko, napapatanong na tuloy ako sa sarili ko, to all the people the I liked before, "was it love or just a mere infatution?" I've been living for about 19 years now, ang dami ko nang naranasan, but I feel like sobrang kulang pa non, sobrang dami ko pang gustong masubukan, ma-achieve, at hindi ko dapat minamadali yung sarili ko na makahanap ng pagmamahal na nararanasan ng iba para lang masabi ko sa sarili ko na I am deserving and worthy of receiving love. Because I totally knew it in myself that I am full of love, at hindi ko dapat ipinagkakait sa sarili ko yung pagmamahal na binibigay ko sa iba, kasi in the first place, sa'kin na mismo nanggagaling yung pagmamahal na gusto kong maranasan. 

Kagabi I've come to realize that since huling araw na ng buwan ng hulyo, I think this is the perfect time na I should learn to not get stuck by those miserable things that happened to me on my past. I just have to forget it all but remember the lesson I learned from it, and just live with no regrets each and every day.

Since it's the first day of the month, and 17 days before the school year 2024-2025 starts, I have to make the most out of it. 

Kaya natin ito, nissy!