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Nissy's Personal Blogging Purpose

I started this blog on August 5, 2021, as a space where I can freely share my thoughts and emotions. Opening up to others has always been hard for me, but this blog helps me work through my feelings and be real with myself. Feel free to read anything here, but please do so with kindness and without judgment. ^_^

Wednesday, July 24, 2024

Midnight Thoughts

 "You can't always win life, but you can always choose to fight. "


Today is July 24, WEDNESDAY. It's currently 11:51 p.m. and my mind is too chaotic right now so here I am again! Writing another blog entry for today. Hmmm, what will be the content? I dont know... I'll just say everything's that going on with my life and my mind.

First of all, our cpu just stopped working 2 days ago but it came back earlier from the technician and it's working again. I downloaded 2 IDE which will be needed for the pasukan (NetBeans and VS Code). Tapos I tried  playing Dragon City, oh dear I miss my childhood.

These past few days, ang tanging pinagkakaabalahan ko lang ay watching youtube shorts tapos movies. Tapos since nasira nga yung cpu, nung naging ayos na ulit, nag-try ako maggawa ng simple calculator pero hindi ako medyo proud kasi nanood lang naman ako ng tutorial sa YouTube.

Yung sinabi kong maga-advanced study ako thus vacation, kaunti lang yung usad ko. Ano kayang mangyayari sa pasukan?

Tapos may Super typhoon na tumama sa pilipinas, and ilang araw ding malakas yung hangin at ulan. Alam mo ba Nissy, ngayong bakasyon super late ako matulog like 1am to 2am tapos ang gising ko 9am to 10am, I really have to adjust my sleeping schedule na since malapit na nga talaga yung pasukan.

I don't know what to expect sa dararing na pasukan, pero alam ko namang kaya ko. Kakayanin ko ito!

Hmmm, ano pa ba nissy? Wala na akong masabi. Ahhh, eto. Ngayong bakasyon napansin ko talaga sa sarili ko na sobrang socially awkward ko palang tao. Malaking impact yung pagiging introvert ko kasi ang hirap sakin na magiba yung wall ko. Kumbaga kahit mismong mga kaibigan ko, they don't know the half of me. Parang may layer, na hindi ko napapakita sa iba yung side ko na yun kasi nga I'm not comfortable. Ang confusing ba? Basta yun.

Kaya napapansin ko lang din na sa circle of friends ko, ako yung pinaka hindi nila kilala. Miski nga sarili ko hindi ko na makilala. Existential crisis sa kalagitnaan ng gabi, jannice okay ka pa?



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