"I know I did a lot of mistakes, but I don't regret making any of them because if I hadn't made any of them, I wouldn't have learned how to make things right"
It's currently 11:16 p.m. Kanina, I watched my comfort movie entitled 13 going on 30. There was specific scene between the main character Jenna and her mom and it's about Jenna asking na if there's a specific time na her mom can really go back to, would she go back?
I admit, I am trying and trying to occupy my mind just to not forget the things that I have done. Hanggang ngayon, hindi ko pa rin napapatawad yung sarili ko, ang sama parin talaga ng tingin ko kasi mali yung mga nagawa ko dati. I can't focus on what I am doing, I am always haunted by my own past, para akong kinakain ng guilt ko.
hmmm, since I can't stop thinking about it, iku-kuwento ko dito.
Dati nung nasa transition stage ako from elementary to highschool, I tried to cut ties with a lot of people. Yun yung mahirap sa'kin dati, ang dali kong makalimot sa pinagsamahan namin dati nung former friends ko which is sinisisi ko rin naman yung sarili ko kasi we've outgrown each other and hindi ko na rin naramdaman na we're in the same vibes anymore. Kaya walang tumatagal na kaibigan, kasi ako yung lumalayo. I was toxic, and I totally admit that. Kaya rin hirap ako makipag-kaibigan kasi alam kong ako yung mali, hindi ako masyadong nag-mamaintain ng friendship kasi I always isolate myself TOO MUCH when things get tougher in my life. I don't like the way I deal with my problems because I know in myself na pati relationships ko with other people ay maaapektuhan.
Haaay.
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