The content for today's blog is about my happy moments. Sometimes, when we are at the moment when we feel happy, enthusiastic, or excited, we tend to take it all for granted kasi we might feel na we experience it every now and then so nasasanay tayo sa mismong exact moment na 'yon. I know what I am saying right now is too general but that's exactly the point. May mga bagay na nangyayari satin at the present time na akala natin pangmatagalan but the truth here is, the world evolves and changes and everything that is around us is just temporary.
As a sentimental person, I tend to overlook the wonderful things, those wonderful people. Tapos ngayong nasa present moment ako, those people are just... strangers with memories anymore. As I have said to my past blog, I am not the type of person na nag-i-initiate ng catch up and I feel like mali ko 'yon on my part kasi may mga pinagsamahan din naman kami and knowing na ako yung lumalayo not because I wanted to, but I really NEEDED to, makes me feel like I'm a bad person.
So, Miss Nissy, when was the last time you were happy, yung walang pagpapanggap, yung masaya ka talaga na hindi para ipakita sa iba na you're not blaming yourself over and over again ervery night for the things that you've done to your past. How come we can easily forgive other people, but we can't forgive ourselves, my dear nissy?
How I wish I could just let past self-go and not hold on to those bad memories anymore. How I wish I can easily let go those people who are not part of my life anymore. How I wish I let myself be happy and not be surrounded by those thoughts that the world will continue on evolving if I am completely gone?
How I wish I could free myself and do whatever the fuck I want without having the feeling that I don't deserve to have the liberty to do things.
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